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I came in to work today knowing that I had a busy day and I dreaded the fact that I couldn't sleep well at all last night, but the Lord had better things planned for me. He wanted me to take a day and think about Kayleigh.
Besides training Bo first thing early this morning, my first fitness assessment today was with Andrea (On-dray-uh). Yes, I got it wrong two times but because of humility, I won't pronounce it wrong again. LOL. Andrea is a new member and all new members get a free fitness assessment. When I first start the appointment, I typically ask people a little bit about their fitness history and that is when the whole conversation turned to Noah and Kayleigh.
Out of all the people God wanted to put in my life today, it was the perfect person because we both were just so busy, stressed and full of anxiety that we just needed that time to talk about our children and take our minds off of exercise and work for once.
It was crazy how it all started out because within the first couple minutes, she mentions that when she was pregnant, she had high blood pressure and had to deliver Noah early, I just knew that this was not going to be an hour filled with goal talking. But beyond mentioning preeclampsia, she mentions that she had a Molar Pregnancy and my jaw hit the floor.
Little Noah went to Heaven during the pregnancy term and that was due to this Molar pregnancy. If you have never heard of this type of pregnancy, you must educate yourself because it is not that common for those to have a Molar pregnancy and actually have a little peanut develop in the egg. Normally the egg is empty.
When one of our maternal fetal medicine doctors came up with the research and thought Kayleigh's situation could be a Molar pregnancy, we did our own research to see how many mothers delivered their children from this tragic condition and we came up with three cases. However, one passed away shortly after birth, another lived quite a few years before passing away and the last was not conclusive. I am not really positive of any other cases, but I am sure they are out there somewhere.
Out of every person I speak to about their child who went to Heaven, some say they know exactly what we are going through even when the experiences are completely different, but some with also make a point to say their situation is not the same and they have no idea. I honestly think that everyone's feelings are the same, even though I would "think" to say that people have no idea what we are going through...but actually they do.
Whether or not a child went to Heaven before delivery, after delivery, squeezed your finger, cooed for the first time, spoke their first words, walked them to their very first classroom or walked them down the isle, having a child who's so precious and dear to our hearts go to Heaven before we do is painfully sad and leaves a missing part of your heart that will never be replaced. Everyone feels that same loss, just not everyone has the same memories. Even though I may not know what people are feeling, I do know exactly how they feel and thankfully with God's grace, we can only rely on Him to heal that pain.
So we sat and shared our stories and talked quite a bit. I showed her the blog and we actually watched Kayleigh's three videos that a special friend created for Kayleigh's memorial and the blog. It was time spent well, but the funny thing is, I had to schedule her for another session soon to redo the assessment we initially set out to do.
Not to mention that I told Andrea that I have not posted in a while and someone answered that prayer real quick by cancelling my next two assessments which opened up the following two hours. So...here I am :)
Thank you Andrea tons for the talk and please know there are millions out there who are here for you too.
Please keep Andrea's husband in your prayers as he is in the military and will be deployed next month.
Thanks and God Bless!
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